My Book is Full of Words

March 30, 2015 § 1 Comment


In 2013 I spent a whole year on Twitter exploring the meaning of “big” words like life, death, love, sex, pain, pride, violence, hope… When I started writing these “definitions” in January that year, I had no idea they’d become a project. I had just entered a period in my life where reflection and its creative documentation not only felt necessary but became my life’s red thread. A thread far from following a straight line, though, but mostly curling into circles that only slowly, if at all, formed a moving spiral. Most of the words escaped permanent definitions; life kept, and keeps, redefining them for me.

This project, I later named ‘All the Words’, became something like an online journal of aphorisms, epigrams or naked verses — sometimes looking for a poem and coming closer together, and sometimes running away from each other, contradicting and opposing each other. All of them were based on my personal observations and emotional reactions to readings of all kinds, the news and everyday experiences, or chats with friends, online or in person. Many people followed my ramblings on Twitter, retweeted and frequently replied commenting on them, as they felt addressed by one or the other poetic definition.

The creative process on Twitter has been a unique experience for me but now I’m delighted that ‘All the Words’ has also become a beautiful little book thanks to Phoenicia Publishing and my publisher Elizabeth Adams. Even if you’d read each one of those tweets on Twitter, Elizabeth has created a typographic design that will make that process, that Heraclitian river of words and meanings, visible for you and aesthetically a new experience. Some of the earliest supporters of that project on Twitter shouldn’t be surprised to find yourselves also mentioned in my words of thanks as your generous feedback kept me writing and posting.

Among those precious early readers were three people I enormously admire and am grateful to for they were kind enough to write what they liked about ‘All the Words': the poet and translator George Szirtes who has won a variety of prizes for his poetry (Reel, The Burning of the Books, Bad Machine) and for his translations (László Krasznahorkai’s Satantango), the multitalented Natasha Badhwar, columnist at Mint Lounge, film-maker and fashion entrepreneur, and the poet Dave Bonta (Twelve Simple Songs, Odes to Tools) who is a very well-known blogger and online publisher of Moving Poems.

You can read what they had to say about the book on the Phoenicia website page for ‘All the Words’ where you can also pre-order the book in a pre-publication price between now and the official April 15th launch.

I will be happy for your feedback, here or elsewhere.

Night Lies

February 3, 2015 § Leave a comment


There’s the night lying
next to my bed and lying:
Tonight you’ll sleep well.

I try not to think
of Mondays, of yesterdays,
and the missed voices.

Shadows take over
step by step fragile bodies
move and talk like them.

We are sleepwalkers,
looking for a place where safe
we can stay awake.



Of Trains

January 18, 2015 § Leave a comment


And like so many other poems
this will also start with a train.
The train from Athens to Munich,
to Hamburg, to Amsterdam,
the night train.

Darling, don’t love part time,
don’t love sentimentally,
at the ticket counter. Love
with a newspaper in the hand,
love by writing letters.

Listen! The voices are many,
yet the night favours one
that whispers in your dream.
One that once was a body
sitting in a train, leaving.

And like so many other poems
this will also end with a train,
first on the track this morning
wiping last night’s lines
with fast light.

The Hours

November 24, 2014 § Leave a comment

Endangered, she said,
when I drink my morning coffee
to disappear, to lose control
to find everything unreal.
Take these memories of last year,
dip them in hot water like tea,
add sugar, take a sip, come near!
How long long can take? How
immediate can be now? And
where is yesterday when one needs it?”
Awake. In the wee hours 
thoughts are preserved in darkness,
to dissolve with the first light.

A German House

October 11, 2014 § Leave a comment


“My brother.  He was the miller.  He built the house all by himself. Yes, a three-floor house for all of us.”


“One floor for each sister. But only one of us got married.”


“Also five garden sheds. He was a collector of all sort of things.  The sheds were all fully furnished and prepared for our summer evenings. Still are. ”


“Oh, haven’t we had some lovely evenings with neighbours and friends here…”


“Now it’s just the two of us. She, 95 and I, 88…”


“… and the house.”


“Once a Turk came by– or was he a Greek like yourself? Can’t remember… He was a puppet master.”


“I got these from him. They might fit you.”


The House On The Hill

September 27, 2014 § Leave a comment


That house on the hill was from the 18th century.


He said they’d moved out of it and into the new house in the back yard in the early 70ties but everything was still in place inside, just like the day they had moved out. He cleaned it regularly himself.


His mother had been an adopted child. No papers were needed those days – you could just get the youngest child from the poorer relatives. They had been thankful.


“All very religious people.”


His own children, in their late twenties, early thirties, had left the valley because of the bad Internet connection.


This had been his room.


“Where are you from?” “Your occupation?”

For A.

August 24, 2014 § 5 Comments



I find myself less willing to write in English. A sign of sudden dislike? No, more a sign of some sort of language fatigue. I think mostly in Greek or German. I should say, I mostly think in a mixture of Greek *and* German. For me, writing in English, putting thoughts into English sentences or verses, isn’t just challenging though satisfying work; it’s also a kind of a clearing of my thought cloud — a way to put emotional distance between my thoughts and their sources while still expressing them.

Nevertheless, two weeks into my holiday month here in Greece, I still feel tired and worn out from work and other challenges I faced before vacation began. I find myself distracted and lost in those thought clouds. And once again, Greece is primarily a bodily experience for me; the mind is taking some days off. I enjoy the dawns and dusks, the sea, the salt on my skin after a long swim, the taste of each tiny piece of bread that I dip into olive oil….

But things happen, too, and sometimes they are less enjoyable. August 15, was a high Orthodox feast day for the Assumption of the Virgin Mary. Since half of the Greek population is somehow named after Holy Mary, there was someone celebrating a name day in nearly every household. In ours, it was my dad and I (I for my second name). My best friends were invited to dinner and Mum gave it her all to demonstrate what I’ve been missing the whole year: fresh salads and lamb, stuffed grape leaves, my favourite pie with feta cheese, herbs and spinach…. Wine!

All day long the phone kept ringing with people congratulating us for our name day. Around midday, A. called from Crete. A. is an Albanian woman who had worked in my family’s grape fields since first coming to Greece in 1992, more than 20 years ago now. I had already begun my studies in Germany then, but I was spending almost all of my long term breaks and summer vacations back in my village. Everyone was very curious about the life A. had left behind in Albania, so when work was finished, we’d all have lunch on the veranda and ask her questions.

A. was one of the minority Greeks who’d suffered discrimination during the Albanian Communist dictatorship. She spoke perfect Greek, having been taught by her mother, and in Greek schools when they existed. Her husband, who followed her to Greece a few years later, was a Muslim Albanian who’d learned a bit of Greek after working here for a few years. He changed his Muslim name from S. to “George” immediately after coming: He wasn’t counting much on the religious tolerance of most Greeks, and besides, people (like my dad) kept forgetting his Muslim name. Albanians are wise people. Greeks are equally wise when elsewhere, and as equally intolerant as others when they are home — just like other folks I’ve met in my travels, which is a huge problem for this planet.

Because she spoke Greek, A. was one of the first of the Albanian immigrants. She walked the entire way down to the Peloponnese with her seven-year-old son, the only one of her four children who she felt was too young to be left behind with their father, two older daughters and a second son. (A. was the inspiration for my short story, “St George’s Bell”.)


My family was one of the lucky ones who profited from A.’s determination to make enough money in Greece in order to build a huge, brand new house for her family back in Albania. (I’ve seen photos of it, and it makes my parent’s house looks quite shabby in comparison.) She, a slim and positive-spirited woman, took every job she could find in the fields and in the houses: picking fruit, cleaning, and even digging in the fields. Everyone praised her diligence, as well as her intelligence when problems needed to be solved. While living in our village, she didn’t rent a proper house as others did because she wanted to save as much money as she could for her family’s dream. Instead, she lived in the fields in a shack that was offered to her by another local farmer. However, when my son was baptised in Greece, she was the one who gave him the most expensive present. That really brought tears to my eyes.

I’ve always felt there was a special bond between A. and me because we became immigrants at almost the same time, and we loved exchanging stories about our lives. She experienced firsthand the whole development of the immigration movement to Greece during the past twenty years, and its relation to the Greek financial crisis: the first overwhelming wave of immigrants from ex-Communist countries after the political earthquakes and Balkan wars; then, the settling down of things after the immigrants became legal and their prospects in Greek society improved; and finally, the second huge wave of immigration during the financial crisis, when refugees crossed the Turkish borders and the Mediterranean Sea. This financial crisis affected immigrants like A. as much as it did Greek citizens and sparked the rise of xenophobia and neo-Nazism. (It’s important to mention here — and further proof of the unpleasant similarities among human beings — that even some immigrants of Albanian origin have been active in racist attacks on immigrants of colour.)

Now, A. has been living in Crete for two years, ever since she was diagnosed with colon cancer. She moved there with her husband so she could be cared for by her two married sons who work and live in Crete with their families. She has been undergoing chemotherapy and other treatment at a local hospital.

I was very moved by her phone call but sad to hear her say how tired she was. After we talked, my mum, who’s been in regular contact with A., informed me that her health was in a very bad state and that the end had been postponed as far as an end could be postponed.

But I was not the only one who was moved that day! While mum, a very dear cousin of ours, and I were preparing the dinner table for our expected fourteen guests on the veranda, bringing out the china from our “good” living room, we heard a terrible noise that sounded like cracking, falling stones. I thought the roof tiles were dropping through to the living room because of an earthquake, which I’ve experienced before, so I shouted to my son: “Get out of the house!”

Mum, my cousin, and I quickly looked around, but nothing was falling. Then we realized that the floor was moving. Its large white tiles were rising and breaking in domino effect and in several directions, as if huge tree roots were pushing them upward from below. No need to mention all the horror movies we’ve watched that were influencing our assumptions about what might be trying to come up through the middle of our house!


One architect and two construction engineers later that evening, we found out it was something that often happens when tiles are not properly laid with enough glue and space between them: After two decades, the natural laws of physics had caused them to expand and contract. Now, four connected rooms looked as if we’d had a private earthquake, and the cost of their repair was an impressive name day present for my dad.

Nevertheless, this explanation was a great relief, and after we’d all calmed down, mum saw no reason to cancel the dinner: the food had been cooked, the wine was cold, and the china was now safe on the veranda table. Plus, The spectacular calamity could be reported and shown to our guests as an opener. It was an evening of great oohs and aahs, along with plenty of laughter.

The next morning, we were still talking about the events when a neighbour brought us the news: A. had died the evening before. Our tiles had been laid in 1992, the same year that A. had come to our village on foot, signed on to work for my family, picked our grapes, and swept our newly-tiled floors.

A.’s family took her body back to Albania, where funeral rites were performed in her beautiful house.

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